I saw this on post secret this morning and I couldn't believe how much I could relate to it. Yeah, yeah, kinda emo I know but I have been trying to figure out how I can get out of my shell a bit to meet people. The longer I go without friends the harder it gets to get out there and meet people.





This is a vicious cycle I have gotten myself into. I really don't know how to get out of this loop. I have to get my courage up enough to just be around people and in situations where I might meet interesting people. I have so much anxiety though it makes it hard to over come my fears where I can feel comfortable in a social setting. Also it sucks that I feel so depressed because that certainly doesn't attract others. I don't think I would want to be friends with me when I am being such a sour puss.

I love being a pagan but sometimes I am envious of religions that have a temple on every street. How much easier it would be to just be able to go to church and meet like minded people. I have gone to one of the local pagan meet-ups and it went well though I felt extremely self conscious. I haven't been able to get up my nerve to go to another one.

Trying to deal with this is a work in progress.